R.I.P little fishes ...

For my little fish, I hope that wherever you may be now that you are safe and happy. I am sorry that I could not look after you the way that you wanted and needed.

To the 2 that are left ... Daniel and Peixe ... I know Peixe that you are sick and I am sorry. I will try and save you, but I have the feeling that it might be just too late. To my big fishie Daniel, I am so glad that you grew big and strong, I know that you will be okay. I will save you for sure. I will clean your tank and then I will buy you some new friends. I am sorry if your gf will die, I will try and save her, I know you will be heartbroken without her, but maybe you could learn to love again. I do not expect you to. And I do not blame you if you would wish to join her to wherever she would go.



On another note ... Daniel, my love, please do not worry. There is nothing to be afraid of, there are people that are going to take good care of you. I know you worry that they will hurt you, but they will not, they are good people, I made sure of it.

I know that I have hurt you. I hurt you so much that this has happened and I would do anything to make it be okay. You asked me what list that I would be on and I will leave that decision up to you, I am not the one who can make a call like that. What I said to you was very wrong and I know that you will never forget it.

And when you feel like you are ready to make the decision of what you want to do with me, then I am ready and waiting to listen to you. I was the straw that broke the camel's back, I know it and for that I am very sorry. And I am also sorry that I cannot make this decision for you, but when you make it, I will respect it.

I know that I am not worthy of your love or forgiveness, but that is not for me to decide. My only wish for you is that you will feel better soon. I hope that you will feel better and be better and be the happy Daniel that you were before. I am sorry for taking that away from you, but I will do anything to give that back to you. If there is anything that you would want or need, then all you need to do is say it and it will be done to the very best of my ability.



And if anyone needs me, then you know where I am. And thank you for all your support, it really does mean a lot to me, most certainly when I know that this is all my fault. I will do anything you ask of me.

I will try my best to be good and be okay. I cannot look after my boyfriend or my fish or myself, but I will be okay, so no worries :-)