For my prince, my sister and my friends ...

Okay, being that I am not going to be here much longer anymore, I thought that I should write some words. Not that I am leaving the blog or anything, but I thought that I should post a little something. I do it tonight because I do not want to run out of time and have it wait.


First of all, I know that there has been some shit that has happened during my time - starting with the damn plane LOL - but I have enjoyed my time here a hell of a lot. I am not even sure that I even want to go back home. I never wanted to leave last time and for sure I do not want to go this time. Then on the other hand, I do miss being at home and I do want to be there too. I hate so much that it is so much of a distance and it costs far too much to travel more often. I wish that there was a way that I could be in 2 places at once, then I would not have any problems and I could just be wherever I felt like.


I like it here and I like the people that I have met here - my friends. I wish that I could just be here and hang out with you all the time. But you should know that I do not forget you and I think about you all the time. And I can promise that I will be back!



And you know, my dear Twister, how much I love you. You do know it, right? If you do not, then it is now here on the blog! I know that you hate it when I say it because for you it can mean other things, but for me I am not so sure that I would have any other words that I could use. I love all the time that we have spent together and I know that it is going to take me ages to get used to not waking up here on the burden bed. I really enjoyed all the time that we have spent doing all our Twister things and I might not be good at saying it or anything, but here you have it now. I am going to miss you so very much when I have to leave and I would put all that money that I am going to cry, but just give me a little push and I will go and get on the plane. You know I will call you the second that I am home and for sure I will be back here before we know it and we can do loads of other things together! =)



Daniel ... My prince, I hope you did not think that I would forget you! I should really be giving you a post all on your own. And please do not expect me to write anything as beautiful as you did, I could not even if I would try and we both know how bad I am with my words.


I know that this time has not been easy. I know that none of our time together has really ever been that easy. It seems that always the time when it is about to become so easy for us, just that once, we end up beging pushed back into the hard part. They just test us and they try and keep us apart, but they just have not yet realised that we are together and there is no way that they would ever be able to separate us.


Even though things did not go to plan, I want you to know how happy I am for you. This is something that you have wanted for so long and I am so happy that finally you have got the chance to just go for it. And I am so very proud of you. I always knew that you could do it, I knew how smart you are, even when you would try and tell me the opposite, I could just see it. I hope that you know just how proud I am of you. I always have been so proud of you, but I think now is one of those special times in life where I just have to be that little bit more proud of you.


You asked me the other day why I love you. I would like to put it on here because then that way, even when I am on the plane or so, then you can just come here and find it. I would hope that by now you do know it, but I know how nice it is to hear it and read it.


I am not even sure that there are any words that would allow me to fully describe why I love you and in all the ways in which I do love you. You are just my everything ... you are my rock when I am weak, you are brave when I am scared, you are my light when it is dark, you are the arms when I need a hug, you are the lips when I need a kiss, you are my eyes when my way is foggy and I cannot see my way so well, you are my decision maker because I am so hopeless at that ... I love how you listen to me even when I talk crap, I love it how you tell me to shut up, I love knowing that you are always there for me, I love waking up to you, I love falling asleep in your arms, I love the times we are busy, I love the times we sit and do nothing, I love it when you tell me all the wonderful stories, I love sharing our lives together and sharing what we want in our future together, I love that you would want to share Peter with me and let me be a part of his life even when I am so far away and how you let me love him like he was my own, I love knowing that if I go away I will always come home to you, I love that you are so patient with me even when I take so damn long to do things, I love the way you love me even when I make it really hard for you to do so ...


I could go on forever, but something tells me that you get the idea.


You are my best friend, my partner, my lover and my soulmate. You are everything that I wished for and a whole lot more on top and every day I love you more and more. I cannot wait to keep spending the rest of my life with you and watching as each of the hopes and dreams and wishes and secrets that we have shared come true right before our eyes.


I hope so much that you know how proud I am of you, even though we missed seeing us. I feel so lucky to be a part of this as I watch you discover that you are the man that I always knew that you were.


I love you Daniel. Please, do not ever forget that.